My child support has ended and I am left feeling sad. Not sad because there will be no more child support, my son is old enough to take care of himself now. And definitely not sad because that marriage ended, as I know it was the best thing for me. Sad that anger, jealousy, and deceit found its way into this situation which would have ended so very differently if these emotions had not existed.
Because I decided to leave my marriage, and it was not an easy decision, I was left dealing with hatred and deceit so extreme that if I were a weak woman it may have brought me to my knees. But here I am with my head held high.
I honestly always thought that if you did the right thing and told the truth that people could see that. I sure was smacked upside the head with reality! I learned that if you are not a deceitful person that you can surely become a victim of one.
But when I think of it, who really was the victim here? Was it the intended target or those who were manipulated into being part of a devious plot?
It’s sad to know what I know. It’s sad that people in a position to change things did not. It’s sad that siblings were separated. It’s sad that children, once again, lost another mother. The whole situation is just so darn sad!
So here I am feeling sad. Sad that hatred seems to have eaten away the soul of someone who used to say he loved me. Sad to think that envy has brought about a bitter person who has tried everything to hurt me and take me down. I truly feel sad for you.
Yet here I am, still standing! Still involved in a close relationship with my children and working on mending the relationships of those who were casualties of a war that should never have been. I am still loved by many. I am happy with my life.
I wonder, was it all worth it?
Was it worth all the lies and deceit?
Was it worth turning your back on your son and pretending I was the one at fault?
Our son once looked up to you. You were his hero. I would never have taken that away from him. But your hatred for me consumed you so much that it diminished any love that you had for him.
Was it all worth it? Was it worth losing a relationship with your son?
It all makes me so sad….